So Many Choices

I was in tesco on Sunday and I was looking thru some of the drinks product from coffee, tea and other stuff. We as human are considered lucky as there are so many different products in the market and the different pricing. Not only that, the taste will be different too. It actually reminded me of last year when my parents were away for holiday and I was in Tesco to shop for food.

But the thing is with so many choices, we at times see a lot of stars as we don't know what we would like to try to buy. Example is like maggi mee, there are diff brands and all brands come out with chicken flavour! But I think maggi mee all taste the same. Haha.

In overall, in our life, daily we need to make choices. IF we don't make any choices, we wont know what we want. Not only that, we have to make a mistaken then only we will know what is the best for us or what is our preference next time.

18th March

I believe I got the date right. On 18th March it was cloudy and the day was good. But it was even better as I manage to spend more time with God in the morning. I knew for the whole day I will be working with different sets of people / programmers and I prayed to God for strenght and to have a great day ahead.

I went to office feeling peaceful, really happy too. I decided to hear Christian Music on my handphone most of the time of the day. It really brought good to me as my attitude was always intact and I was always so happy, cranking up jokes to bring the atmosphere to life! Even though there were many programmers that kept on wanting to go into the server room and kept on apologizing I didn't mind as it is my duty to bring them in and to make sure they are able to do their work to their best for their project.

I really want to thank God for that day. It was really special to me. If you are wondering if I fight with programmers everyday, nah I don't. I only will have war with them when they m16 me for something that I didn't do or when they send nasty email to me for no reason.

Monopoly Tycoon

Downloaded this the other day and started to play it and it is really fun. My CG leader reco this game to me. So the next day I went to find and game and started to play it. I kept on building my empire :P But this game has many levels and each level you have a diff objective to achieve. You can even play this game over multiplayer which is hold the max of 6 people. If you want it let me know. For More Info Click Here.

Screen From The Game

Ku Mohon

This is actually one of my favourite song. The other day when I was driving back, I decided to pop on my radio and this was playing on air. This song is sang by Sheila Majid and you can hear / see the video over here . Check out the lyrics of the song and you know our God is like that and if we really pray, God will answer our prayer and cover us and not forgetting to lead and guide is EVERYDAY.

Ku Mohon

Setiap hari ku mohon

Agar Kau sentiasa

Memberiku ketenangan

Dalam hati kekuatan

Menempuhi segala

Dugaan yang mencabar ini

Pasti, punya ertinya

Engkau beriku harapan

Menjawab s'gala persoalan

Hadapi semua dalam tenang

Dengan merasa kesyukuran

Ku doa Kau selalu

Mengawasi gerak-geriku

Berkatilah... ku perlu rahmat darimu

Chorus:

Oh Tuhan, terangkan hati dalam sanubariku

Untuk menempuhi segala

Hidup penuh cabaran ini

Oh Tuhan, ku berserah segalanya kepada Mu

Agar jiwaku tenang

Dalam bimbingan mu, selalu

Verse 2

Adakala ku merasa

Hidup ini seperti kaca

Jikalau tidak bersabar

Hancur berderailah akhirnya

Tabahkanlah hatiku

Melalui semua itu, oh

Kuatkanlah, cekalkanlah diriku

Repeat Chorus

Curahkanlah nikmat Mu

Pada hidupku

Earth Day Today

Hi people,

If you read and you want to support, turn off your lights from 830-930 tonight. It is just for awareness but its a good start towards everything :)

Fed Up With Work

Today my boss called me for a talk once again. Today was the day I kena m16 by my boss again as he say I am not focusing on my main job. He was saying that I am always looking at technical stuff most of the time (yeah of course coz its my job too) like from server installation, server troubleshooting and other stuff which is technical. The reason why I look into it is because I am holding the DAMM ADMINISTRATOR ID! Not only that, when programmers come and check their application / do installation I need to be with the programmers. This is my task. And when the programmers come and do installation, my whole day is gone or even few hours! Not only that, as the programs are so damm good, they might call me to check the server to see if their damm application is working!

Not only that, when the server got any issue, who will troubleshoot or even report and get the engineer to come in? ME! WHY? COZ THE REST WONT KNOW HOW TO DO IT or WONT EVEN DO IT! So this cause me to be down with many hours figuring out how to fix the problem and if it is a repeat problem, I can fix it straight away. I know this is not my job but if I don't do it, I will get m16 like the way it happen during CNY! We have a network guy but he does nothing and when the servers have problem, he don't even give a hand. Worst of all during meeting yesterday, when my boss ask him feedback on how to find out the root of the server problem, he say "Teo is better than me". So end up, all the crap come back to me.

When every few hours is taken from me, I will be back dated in my work. I have so much documents to catch up most of the time as I need to update the excel sheet, register the form (UAR, HSR, CR, IHR, SR) and etc etc. This is all time consuming! Not only that, he told me I should do it once a week! If everyday got around 5 forms, once a week is around 20! But guess what? Most of the time I got more than 20 forms as the programmers in Silverlake everyday need to fix their damm bugs on their application!! Not only that, I need to check and sign on all the forms to say that I allow the job to be done.

Even my boss question if I am in the right field as I am technically strong and I should be doing servers and etc. He then gave me a little hope saying that since I am technically strong and if I could brush up on my security skills, I will get high pay which I totally agree. Since most of the time I need to get the thing done myself as I have no assistant, somethings must wait. I try my very best to give what I can but I cannot! Time is so against me everyday and next thing I know, it is time to go home (lets say 530pm)

I know my increment is coming really soon. I know this will all pull down my increment. Maybe I should start ignoring the whole world and just get my job done. Hell with servers. I will rather give up the servers to others to take care rather than be under my care. I guess I need to learn to become blur in everything and only get my work done. But I can't lie to myself as most of the things will come back to me no matter how I try to avoid it. My boss is one @ss as most of the time he always will back fire me. I will illustrate an example

Boss : You must focus your work and etc etc etc (to me)

JT: No I won't do for you (to Programmers)
Programmers : *calls my boss and complain about me coz not helping them*
Boss : *calls JT and ask him to help them do*


See it always happen like the chat on top! I always get back fire! That is what I hate. I really hate working in Silverlake at times. Even though I put my 100% into work everyday, I still get backfired! Even when I stand to what is right, I am always at the loosing end. Not only that, last Saturday, I had to go back to work as it is programmers problem I had to work too. Damm, if the programmers know how to do their work nicely I won't get into so much crap. My boss told me this just now

Boss: You cannot say its not your problem as you are doing support so you need to help out too
JT : *damm*

Guess what? In my contract it is written from 9-530, MONDAY - FRIDAY and not Saturday and SUNDAY! Now the best part is they have given me a support hp which I REFUSE to activate it. They gave me another hp to carry along which I REFUSE too. I find there is no reason to have 2 handphones at all times. It is damm STUPID! I am not even a bussiness man. Even when I carry 2 handphones, I won't be getting any support allowance, so why the hack I bother? Not only that la, goin to leak out a truth. When people call me for every 3 mins I get 1 point free and with this points I can change for sms or airtime :P

I really have no idea how I am going to survive all this crap. I guess I am damm jealous as most of the time people are so free to do other things that they like. I wish I can just be in a place where I don't need to entertain people, get my work done to the best daily and leave office when it is time to go. I guess I should just leave all the servers to be by itself and just do my task daily. So from now onwards, I bid farewell to all the Dell Servers.

Chat With Adrian

Just when you guys thought girls talk a lot on hand phone, guess what? My friend and I chat so much the other day till my friends batt went down! We chat for nearly 1 half hours about Aeon and Silverlake and by the way he tells me, it seems AEON is beyond redemption. Its like all about politics in that office. But one part I would like to hightlight his chat with me is as below.

Adrian : That fella (TGS) suddenly come and comment and ask why I am against her. I know la that he and she now very good friend but last time also he against her all the time.

JT : Who is he to come and tell you / question you if you are against her? Its not his problem at all.

Adrian : Correct, if he want to listen, listen but don't come and give comments coz he is not in my shoes.

JT : I agree (this is when it hit me that one of my friend love comment against me when not in my shoes).


Now the thing is this, If you are never in others shoes, don't comment about others situation as you don't have a single clue what the person is going thru. Don't think that you might be superior than others because you are not in our working life yet. When you work then you will know what I truly mean.

Chat About Job

Was chatting with Liz Lee the other day and she asked me this question

Liz Lee : Would you rather find a job that will pay you a lot or would you find a job that pay you a lot but you cannot do it?

Jason : I would rather it be a balance. I am thankful that I got a job in PJ which is 15mins away from my house, pay is quite acceptable, I love my job and I am able to do it. I have to admit at times when times of implementation, we feel that our salary is not at par with our job task.

Jason : So which will you choose?

Liz Lee : I want both (laugh)

I guess it is quite hard to find both, but its NOT IMPOSSIBLE. But till today, I know even though I went thru tough times in Silverlake, I still thank God for my job as it is near my house, don't have to worry about traffic jams (except rotmans Roundabout), salary is quite ok, I can learn new stuff and put my knowledge to good use from my past experience.

Playing Guitar

Playing guitar has been really bad. Even when that day I did worship, could not really play that well, but now I don't feel like playing so hard anymore or shall I say full strumming. At times I just play the note down stroke once and in btw I will put in some strumming. But I admit, playing guitar at standing up is ext hard. Not use to it. When I play sitting down, I can do more on the guitar rather than standing up. Its all because it is then level the guitar is and when I practice most of the time sitting down so its A LOT EASIER than standing up and play. I have to say I respect those who can play standing up. Respect you guys a lot!

Adonai

Last Saturday, Patrick was doing worship. There he was doing one of the songs that I have no idea where it came from. So I decided to drop by Oops Asia Website and drop Patrick a message and he replied and he in the end gave me the lyrics of his song. But guess what? I am really trying to figure out the chords. Not easy, some parts only I can get. But I have to admit, 3 weeks of doing OT, I havent been touching my guitar for quite some time. So yeah kind of rusty for now, but still working on it to be like what I can play last time. SO now I want to thank Patrick Once again for his song to me :)

One Way

Ladies and Gentleman,

This is the song that is actually my main song theme. Its called One Way. Didn't know that the video was taken in China. Have to admit this is one of my fav fast songs :) Be Bless.

Pre Project Implementation

Pre Project implementation was really tiring. I believe for nearly 3 weeks, I have been working OT every day. Not only that, I have to come back on Sunday's at times to work. Pre planning is really hard. Tough job. Need to get all the fundamentals ready (AS400, Windows Servers, Network connectivity, paper work and etc). Every one will have to play a part in pre project implementation as it is really important. Its like a body that needs every part of its organ to make sure the person is ok.

Pre Project implementation is never easy. Most of the time is when there are items are needed are not in place / not bought, company will expect miracles for items to drop from heaven or even try to recycle items to make sure things can work for the time and not worrying for the future. But I guess this time the project implementation I will be more in the picture as I really need to know what on earth the programmers are doing or else I will be fried from my boss.

Dell Memang Tak Boleh

Darn my server hard disk went down once again. The server is only 3 weeks old and already went nuts! Lucky the server have Raid 1 or else thats it. Haha. But really I really wonder about Dell products reliablility. Its really bad, sad to say. Not only that, with the technical support who sound me the other day was a -ve for them too..

When God Speaks

The other day when I was very proud of my achievement as I kept comparing myself with the programmers, God spoke to my heart about it. I had to do OT that day and as I was driving home, I was still v arrogant. I was like so proud of my knowledge so far and thats when God spoke to me saying this "You are where you are today is because I put you there". At the instant I knew it was meant to bring me down to earth coz I had some attitude problem. I guess when God Speaks we better listen or else it wont be so good.

Classic Question With Classic Answer

One of the days when I was talking to the programmer as below. Enjoy the chat :P

JT : Is it still raining outside? (It was raining very heavy that evening)

Programmer : Because I don't have battery so I can't call him.

JT : (confused and I repeated my question) Is it still raining outside?

Programmer : Yeah it is.

Classic Chat

Was at Development side the other day and check out the conversation below.


Soo : JT, when can print on the new printer?

JT : Not sure but I heard the technical dude will come and finalize the settings. Maybe by today or tmr shud be working

Soo : Oh ok

Liew : Teo this printer can photocopy or not?

JT : (At this moment I could not believe what I have jz heard). Nope it cannot, can print only.

All : (Laugh @ Liew)


The machine that came was a photocopier, printer and fax machine. Its so big and you can see that is a photocopy machine too. If it is a printer only, the machine wont be so big but this is a big and tall guy and the programmer ask me such a classic question..

Good Question & No Answers To It

Mum suddenly ask me a good question. Where are you (me) going to find money to buy a house? I could not answer that statement at all. I know houses this days are really madness. There is a house which is opposite me which is around 710K (nego). There is another house which is down the road which 520K (nego). Look at the pricing of the house. How are we normal wage people going to afford to pay the loan? My sister was telling me if the house is 710K, every month we will need to pay back at least 5K which is madness. If we are earning a lot its ok but we are not.

So where shall I find the money to buy my house? I really don't have any answer. I will need to work even harder now to find the money to be able to pay the down payment (as much as I can) before thinking about the rest. At times it is really scary to think about the future on where we will stay, what car I will drive and etc..

Knight Rider

Knight Rider

I wish at times I have a car like kitt :P I think it will be quite cool. I will just tell kitt to drive to work or even to somewhere while I read the newspapers, do my shoes, sleep when I am tired or etc. It will be cool too that kitt can talk to me when I am with it alone. Not only that, this car is a mustang. I know mustang is nothing to shout about but its still a car. If really I can have a replica of this car, I will be happy :)

Happy Birthday Mum

Mum,

Would like to wish You Happy Birthday

Really Busy From Now

From this week onwards, I will be really busy. Really doing a lot of migration here and there .The best part is that all projects are starting andmospt of the time we are not in the picture. We will suddenly be told we got to do this and that and we just do and we are unsure why is needed. Then later only we will be told it is needed because bla bla bla. The next sad case thing is we are always told the last minute and we are expected to perform magic for the company and most of the time we will be able to do it even though we grumble as everything is not well plan.

I remember the 1st project was launch it was so messy. My work place was like pasar malam and there were not enough seats, people making so much noise and the amount of ppl in and out was really high too. Not only that, I was thrown 46 UAR's to complete in one day and I had to create like 100 user ID's in 3 different system. The best part is the UAR was given to me at around 3pm and by the next day they want it back. Man it is madness. Even though I rush like mad I could not get it done.

I am actually now more worried about the current projects as there are so much uncertainties about who is to do what and who is in charge of what. I am more worried that they will do the same thing to me as what they did to me on the 1st project. I guess from 10th onwards, I will really need to be fully prepared to do the 150% once again with A LOT of help from UPSTAIRS :)

My Parking, Your Parking Or Whose Parking?

Heard that my new neighbour is a lawyer and she is a selfish person. The other day when one of my neighbour park outside her house empty space, she came and told my mum's friend to park some where else as the parking belongs to her. But guess what? If the parking is outside your house, it is public parking and even a lawyer does not have any rights to say this is my parking or this is not your parking or even tell who can park here or not? Sad to say infront of her house, she has a cross. If you have a cross, live by the example and be nice to one another

Replying On Getting Lazy To Chat

Actually what I mean is at times when I am tired or when I am in office and when ppl message me I might take a while to reply or at times really LONG TIME before I reply. My work really need me to do a lot of exercise which is walking into the server room, helping people out and also walking around to do my work. At times when I am physically and mentally tired, I don't really reply my chats too. Worst is when people talk crap with me about stuff which is really crappy. I can tolerate crap but make sure its not too much la.

But feel free to PM me coz I will still reply. Don't worry. But when it is office time at times I am not there so in advance, if its really slow reply, I say sorry 1st :P

Stay The Same

Stay The Same By Joey Mcintyre

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.When you learn to love yourself, you�re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,cuz there�s nothin' 'bout you I would change.

Verse
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Chorus

Bridge
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

Long Hours

The other or shall it be last Tuesday was the day for installation of programs into the server by Mr and Mrs programmers. On Tuesday itself it took 8 hours! Yeah you guys might be wondering why did it take so long? Well we started off at 10am+ and they started to hit errors. Next was lunch time and work start back around 2pm+. Till 8pm only they manage to resolve their problem. I was in the server room most of the time with them. The best part is they wonder what on earth is happening and they ask me to troubleshoot their problem. I cannot do programming so I cannot help them and what they were configuring I cannot do too. The best part is the server is not connected to any firewall and when they hit error, they blame the server. Poor Mr or Mrs server who is still new and yet kena blame. They were not at fault at all. In the end it was the programmers own issue as their own configuration got some issues.

On Wednesday it took them 4 hours+ as they hit the same error again. Then came out an email frm the programmers thanking the programmers for doing such a good job and etc. Next came Mr Teo replying all the emails telling them how long the installation took and all the PM were really shocked and the TL of programmer need to cover his team and he says that 8 hours is quite an ok time which to me is NOT ACCEPTABLE. Reason is this, they told me half hour can be done. So if 8 hours - half an hour means I Have extra 7 half hours to do my work which I didn't have and I had to stay back to do OT. But its ok, I manage to earn some cash that day :P

Chilis

Was at Chilis for the very 1st time in my life 2 weeks ago. To cut the long story short, the food that I ate was not that good and for the price that Mr Ng and I paid, we could have got the best if we went to eat at a Chinese restaurant. I paid around Rm48 for lunch that day and the bill came out to Rm90+. Since the food was nothing to shout about, I decided to really drink a lot as we paid a flat rate for the fruit juice. I drank 4 cups and decided to try all the different taste. But I could not drink guava and tomato juice anymore as I was too full. Maybe the meal that I ordered was not that good. So if you guys been to Chilis before, let me know what is the best there.

Reason why we went to 1U is because we didn't want to join a lunch celebration that was held at the development side. Lucky we didn't go as there was not enough food for my side. I am not sure why on earth the programmers are always so hungry at all times. Not only that, they whack our share too. As once I face the same issue, I didn't want to kena it twice. So lucky I escape, but the UTAR dudes have to go and eat at 888 as there was no food left for us. Even when my boss went there, there was no food for him too. Sad but true.

Dell Technical Support Is Not Good

The other day when I had the server issue, I called the tech support and this guy called Vincent help me out. To cut the long story short when he called me back to follow up on the case on Monday, he asked me if there is any feed back that I would like to give and I actually gave my feed back and guess what? HE was not happy to receive any feedback at all. He told me that since I bought hardware support he will troubleshoot my hardware problems 1st. The best part is he is like not experience at all. When the engineer came the other day, he was wondering what on earth is happening to the server too. I guess it is no harm to add on some knowledge base on their side as it is a good feed back and when there is a customer that hits the same error once again, they can refer to the issue rather than saying don't know. Why are people asking for feedback when they don't want to listen? Might as well dont ask me for any feed back..

So DELL technical support, if you read this, man you guys have lost one of your customers confidence. Not only that, when I ask your technical support question, he told me he is not sure which is MAJOR MAJOR EMBARRASSING.

Don't Play With Your CV & Experience

Yeah the topic is right. When you apply for a job, please don't play around with your cv by writing things that are not relevant with your knowledge. Not only that, when your already working and have 2 years experience, please make sure your cv can stand up. I have a friend's cv who is major embarrassing when I 1st saw it. It does not even show that he has 2 years working experience. The best part is when I did a QnA session with him on some of the technical stuff (as I am not from network background) he cannot even answer me. Can I recommend that if you are not sure on what you are writing on your cv, don't even put it down as you will shoot yourself on the head when you head in for an interview and you kantoi your own cv.

What I am trying to say is this, when you work at a place, work really hard, learn as much as you can and be the best that you can be in where ever you are. I know people who are even at 30 + can tell me they don't know what they are doing. Even my friend in office who does network knows nothing as he plays game, read comic, play fantasy football and watch you tube most of the time. When you ask him stuff, he will always ACT to know but when you ask him to show you the results, he cannot show you anything at all. So if your like 30 years old and you don't know anything, I have to say your time will be really limited if you dont take the chance to learn. People will for sure overtake you and if there are younger one's who have the heart to learn, the old 1's can wave good bye at their job.

So my final words are this. If you cannot do programming, don't do. Look to do something that you really like. In my case, I cannot do programming, so I became an Security Administrator (SA) which writes policy, do technical stuff and a lot more. One thing I can say, when you like to do that task, do your really best.

Getting Lazy To Chat

Not really sure why, but now a days, I am really lazy to chat. I will just leave my MSN / YM /Gtalk and etc on and leave it as it is. I will only chat with people when need to pass a msg across. I guess now chatting is not so much of my kind of thing anymore. I guess the reason is also coz I come back from office late (now most of the time doing OT) and when I come back or when I am work and I am really rushing, I don't really want to be distracted. Even though I am not distracted, I cannot finish my work on time! I guess productivity level must be higher :P But feel free still to chat with me. I will surely reply, but in office my reply might be extremly fast or on the other extreme is extremely slow.

One thing I learn is, must not slack in work as once you slack, the more you will have to do when the time comes. It is worst for Security Admin like me as I really need to check my work, people's work to make sure they are following the policy to the max. My work is like a guru besar making sure people follow rules, but I don't carry rotan la. If I do, I would have whack all the programmers up the wall everyday :P I wish I will have that chance one day.

Dell Server Tak Boleh

In my working life and doing IT and server and etc, I have to admit one thing. Don't ever buy D ELL Servers. They are one of the worst in the market but again I admit they are a lot cheaper if compared to IBM and etc. I have around 1 half years experience with IBM servers and they don't give much of a problem. They really tahan lasak. The previous company that I work for believe that IBM is the best and they only want to implement IBM servers which is really cool to look at especially when it is all mounted in the racks and it is only written IBM :P

Back to my story, 27 April was not so good day for the servers in my work place. I configured 3 servers and out of 3 servers 1 went DOWN THE DRAIN. All I did was change the server name AND THAT'S IT!. I restarted the server and tried to troubleshoot and I knew the server went NUTS already. So I had to log a call to DELL straight away for support as I thought it might be hardware issue. But in the end till 1230am, we found out it is SQL problem.

I went back to office on the 1st of March to fix the server. I had to reinstall everything once again and it was back to normal. One thing for sure, even though the server is pack up with ram and CPU, its still so slow like turtle. If you guys remember the story of the hare and the turtle, my server specs is like the hare BUT the speed of the turtle :P hahahaha

Head On With Many Stuff

Unsure why even though I try to do my best I am still lacking in some place in my life. Don't really know why I still can't catch up with my work. I don't think I am slacking in anyway in office. One thing I know I have a lot of things to do and even with a couple of OT's thrown here and there I still cannot finish it. It only gets a little better but yet the next day the rest will come back.

I guess now I cannot be such a busy body anymore. Other's job will no longer be my job. I need to focus really hard on my side as it is still a lil messy once a while. But I guess cleaning process is a daily process and its hard to always be clean all the time.

This week itself, I have to prepare for 2 more projects. New projects for the year and it will be quite hard especially for me a 1 man show doing ID's, making sure office is ok and a lot more. I guess from now onwards, I need to be more hardworking and if there is a need to always do OT to earn more money and also to make sure my work is up the level. I guess there is no turning back but heading on to a different level all together.

I Really Hate Programmers

I have to admit, I truly hate programmers (certain still ok), most of them actually piss me off A LOT. Worst set of programmers are from Silverlake. They really don't know what they are doing and they have no idea the crap they will head when they do some of the changes that they have never ever tested or done half way only. What I hate is when the mistake of the programmers are always on my friends shoulders or even our shoulders. I feel that is unfair. When the programmers make like a major mistake, they can always run away. Its just the same story as in AEON. Last time those stupid programmers system had some problem and the program cause their main system to be down till 11am, the programmers just walk off the hook!

What I hate is when there is a policy, the programmers cannot follow and when they know they hit the dead wall against me, they will just run to my boss and cry to him and my boss will ask me to help them. What on earth is this? I mean when I do my work, I do it with NO NONSENSE. I stand with what I know is correct and what is also written in the policy. I know I have challenge quite many programmers in my life in SL. Guess what programmers? While I am still there, I will make sure that your life is so hard till you will never forget me. To me programmers are just like pondan. They write crap emails, they push the blame on others when its all their fault. The best part they love to CC the emails to every one to show that we are the bad people. Guess what? We will get back to you really soon and when we fire our 100% artilary, the damage will be big.

When Stressssssssss

I Know that when your stress your tighten up. Not only that, you will feel more heat around you even though the surrounding is really cool. One thing I learn is when your feeling really tight up, frus, piss off, stress and etc, the best way is to walk away and go to the pantry have a drink with mates or yourself and talk about other stuff that will make you happy. It really helps. So take a break, take some tea, coffee, what ever drink that you truly love and chill out :)